November 2009
Whether or not you believe in God, you must believe this. When we as a species abandon our trust in the power greater than us, we abandon our sense of accountability. Faith… all faiths… are admonitions that there is something we cannot understand, something to which we are accountable… With faith we are accountable to each other, to ourselves, and to a higher truth. Religion is flawed, but only...
If you could give your own soul to save millions,...
-angelsanddemons
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I'm thankful for.
Blanket Forts
My Puppy
The future when I escape this town.
Tazo Tea
Winter days.
Owning the whole series of Six Feet Under.
My disfunctional family.
Wool socks.
Me having you for as long as I did.
and every moment that I have had in this past year.
I can't do this.
This year has gone completely full circle. It’s a little bit freaky.
Here I am about to go to Shady Maple…on the same day you had invited me last year….so weird.
Drug Store Romeo.
Family dinner?
That must be nice,
becuase at my house
my mom doesn’t want to listen to my hardships.
So she turns up the volume on CNN and listens to
the worlds’ bad times instead.
“Take this sinking boat and point it home
We’ve still got time
Raise your...”
– Falling Slowly
Debate going on in my noggin.
You said you would still play the music for me, but I just learned it on my guitar and I can do it all by myself now. I don’t need you…for this. I can sing the melody and move my fingers on the fret board all at the same time. YOU ARE NOT NEEDED. Then again here I am typing this knowing very soon I will be typing you an Email saying what time the rehearsal is on sunday. (p.s. most...
I painted my fingers nails two different colors.
So two different people could hold my hands,
One friend and One lover.
Dont hold them both at once.
I promise the colors won’t match.
I guess you’ll just have to settle for one,
but at least we’re still attached.
“My thoughts are sporadic, I act like I’m a addict.”
– Eminem
kill it
It went away just for that minute,
in that moment I didnt remember a thing.
I was full again, for that one minute.
For that one laugh.
Everyone keeps telling me that
I’ll keep getting better.
That I’ll get more laughs and more minutes like that.
But I am really scared I won’t.
(Her Tears and The Curtain Fall)
best stage direction I have ever come across in my life.
Are you kidding me...
i just got a teddy bear flower thing from my mom in the mail.
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see this line. it has been crossed.
I am not going to have a mental breakdown!
I PROMISE
everyone can stop caring so much now please.
“I am the one who loved you.
I am the one who stayed.
I am the one and you...”
– I am the one who cried
-nexttonormal
and like all good artist at moments of crisis, she...
dissapointed is an understatement.
Congrats
you probally deserved it alot more then me, i saw your audition. it was perfect.
It doesnt make it hurt less though…Im sorry I’m saying this you dont deserve these words. But this was the last straw i can’t do this to myself anymore.
When ever i put all of myself into something, it never works out.
im sorry
The shrine that had formed in my room over the...
all that I let stay was a single pink daisy.
It had nothing to do with this,
it didnt seem right to watch it wither in the box
with the rest of the memories.
I’ll let it live in the open air.
The rest can collect dust for awhile.
They will wait for us never to grow up.
Me and my puppy are waiting under the blankets,
ready to jump into the wardrobe when the horn calls us back to our homeland.
The one inside the book.
We will wait here ,in our fortress, playing pretend till that day.
For we know what the other world promises,
we’ve both had the story weaving in us since our birth.
So we will wait for our promise, the one that will take us from this...
To my New Friend: thank you for calling last night just to talk and thankyou for calling me today just to make sure i was still alive.
To my Beta: Thankyou for making me see things rationally [like you always do] I cant wait intill i get to see you again.
To my Sister: Thankyou for being the first to the scene, and thankyou for masking real life with ice tea and disney songs.
To The Random...
[I can barely even type this]
i dont know if your reading this…probally not.
but to everyone else lets make it offical.
We were never perfect.
sorry to ruin your hopes.
imagine how i feel.
thats right you cant.
im never doing this again. ever.
Have my babies John.
“ Just when I had you off my head Your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed You say you wanna try again But I’ve tried everything but giving in Why you wanna break my heart again Why am I gonna let you try When all we ever do is say goodbye All we ever do is say goodbye I bought a ticket on a plane And by the time it landed you had gone again I love you more than...
WHAT ARE WE?!
It hurt so bad not hearing you lie to me.
i hope we can do this
Now we ponder Chapter 12.
I’m not sure if it begins here or leads me through hell.
I look in The Book for answers and pray to the clouds on my ceiling
that the stars in heaven will take it away, take away this feeling.
You found your answers, and now I’m trying to find mine.
I can’t make up a lie. I can’t make up my mind. I can’t just hit rewind.
I know that is...
I say that I won’t touch you. But my fingers are liars. I tell you how I won’t hold you. But my arms are going to hell. I promise I won’t kiss you. But my lips break it. I let you know that I won’t love you. But my heart has no conscience. And no part of me will apologise.
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I am forced to restore what I did not steal.
“I feel like my eyes have been transfigured
something deep inside has changed...”
– -averypottermusical
I’ve almost let go.
The only things still holding on are my finger tips pressed to this guitar.
Your melody is done, it now echoes in my head
as i look at the reject sheet music collectiing dust on my floor.
The words will come soon and then I am sure they will never leave,
they’ll brake in through the crack under my bedroom door.
maybe they’ll escape with all the memories...
Mermaid sitting on a rock
making a scene just to get caught.
Steal her perfection and her scales,
make your teeth shine like her tail.
Imitate her till she dives
back into the water done with being seen.
Imitate her till she dies
done with the world and what it means.
That made my day
and reenforced that this is what I will be doing with my life.
So thanks for being there.
and i guess for being so nice.
